I skim or read several different Jewish journals. This entry really hit the spot for me today: http://onthefringe_jewishblog.blogspot.com/2011/02/learning-from-inside-out.html

I'm not always certain what to say about the slow pace at which I'm proceeding through all this. I know when it's my own choices that make my Friday evenings unavailable for heading to services. I know what I've prioritized when I don't have Saturday morning available. I know the internal knots I went through last year during Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, keeping me away from synagogue.

But I still feel Jewish. I still treasured that quiet time during Hannukkah to light candles and reflect on the moment. My sweetie likes to buy challah for me every week, and it makes me slow down and think about family and devotion and worship in a smaller setting.

I know that I still want to complete my studies, and my gut instinct is to complete them with my Rabbi, even if it means schlepping for the commute. When have I been daunted by a longer drive?

It's still a matter of learning to determine what is Important, just like the blogger I linked above mentioned. Eating kosher is still important to me. Returning to studies (eventually? soon? sometime?) is still important.

I'm still on this path. And I'm grateful for this.