I am home today. I could have told you Saturday that this would have happened-extreme stress of Saturday that did not end till yesterday afternoon, then had pizza for supper. After he had tantrum-or actually break down of how much he hurts because he "I hurt you". Oh well, his normal cycle. I have to teach my body not to react to the stress-but it does-badly and with much pain now.

I did find out that I do need to schedule definate Alone time-that is really a misnomer. I need to schedule non-couple time on a regular basis where I can let my mind go. I haven't been and that may have led to a little of Saturdays blow up. Not sure, I think it would have happened either way. Once he realized where the medical information was and that I had refound it, and where he would have had to be looking to find it.

It is nice to be home alone, to sleep and come out into the living room with only the cat. She is even calmer. Thanks all for putting up with the venting here. I know it is too much drama, but getting it out here allows the rest of me to survive. And that is part of the purpose of a journal. To help us survive the ups and downs. Or as the Bard said, "the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune."