Did alot of work today and alot of reading. Did not eat lunch with DH but we will ride the bus home together. Did a lot of thinking too.

Dh told me this morning that he is asking Doc on 2/22 to take him off of Seroquel. DH is recognizing that his mood changes are more erratic and violent than they use to be. We can be enjoying ourselves and a minor little thing will set him off, and there goes the whole night. And he wonders why I don't want to talk!

Dh is acting all soft spoken and telling me that I should leave him. That I would be better off. I probably would be, but will not until I start getting counseling. I will need to get myself straightened out. I will need to set aside time for self study-or at least some reading. And some time on the computer at the site that can possibly help me.

And yet, he wants to take me out to eat for Valentine's day- probably Sunday afternoon, since Monday is a work day. And Sunday is suppose to be relatively nice-temps in the 50s.

On another note, I have been working on my DD & SIL afghan. The bottom portion is almost done-I did make a mistake, did not discover it for 2 rows. Am not ripping it out since I have used 8 balls of yarn and it becomes a tangled mess. It won't make a big difference in the overall pattern of their last name, just two different "E"s-one at the beginning of the name, one at the end.

I think that physically I have learned how to deal with my medical issues so that I can continue working. But I had to fax my doctor's statement to the powers that be. According to Labor Relations, it can take up to a month for them to make a decision. I gave permission for them to review my medical records for the past 3 years if need be. Or at least my doctor can discuss the past 3 years with them-that is when he became my doc. I also started finding out how much I would get in medical retirement if I need to go that route. It can take 45 business days for the figures to come back. I hope it doesn't take that long.

I don't want to retire, but if that is the way the cookie crumbles, I won't have a choice. I would rather retire than get fired-which can happen.

So lots of pressure on both of us, lots of worry. and instead of telling DD that we can't send more money to her, he commits to helping them out until SIL first pay check.

Oh yeah, I never did say-SIL did get the job. Had to buy uniforms which threw budjet out the window.

DGD is playing a solo in the next concert for her school-she loves the trumpet; but does get a bouts of nerves.