DGD is one smart cookie. I spoke to DD about the book DGD had to read for the book report. Just concern. DD knew and said that DGD had arrainged with teacher to do book report on the part of the book DGD had read. DGD had been stressed out by the size of book/size of print. The books the students had to pick from all had been donated to the school, not purchased. All were high reading levels and DGD is in the highest reading level. Basically she is reading at college level. So the teacher is stretching all of the students as a matter of course. Good for students, worrying for parents. Taught DGD how to handle stressful situation. Also how to handle slightly unfair situation in an adult manner. Wish I had her smarts sometimes! LOL!!

I mentioned that I told DD some of what is going on. I don't know if she has talked(texted) her dad about it. But now supposedly out of the blue, our laptop has a keystroke program on it-according to B. And someone signed him up for a dating service using his home email. HUH?

Oh, well, if he finds this journal, he can read all about it here and everything will crash or he will grow up. His choice. I have only typed 1 entry on our laptop. (last week)

I just think that it is funny that none of my intestinal symptoms are acting up. No stomach pains, no migraines, nothing. I feel calm. No tears. Am I in shock or is this real acceptance of something that has been a long time coming. (If you are tired of this, I understand. I just really expected to feel sad and I don't. I feel resigned to the fact that it didn't work.)

I told him Saturday that he broke a promise he made on our 10th anniversary. He asked what promise. I don't believe he remembered. So I told him. It had to do with my belief. (I typed 'our' but it isn't.) And how 22 years later, that promise still isn't fulfilled. And it was suppose to be fulfilled 1 year later. Before any of the problems with DD or the church ever started. He still blamed me for not teaching him. Nope, didn't accept that from him.

You know, if DS moves to DC. B & DS can live together. I think they are the same type. Let them figure it all out. Not me. I will see DS once a month-away from B. That's it. I will move out. Have to figure that one out.

I will not need new clothes for at least 3 years. Did all the laundry-he has been buying clothes every time we have an arguement and my closet shows it! That is his way of making up. Yesterday it was Hershey's candy shaped in 'X and O'. I think it was leftover Valentine's Day candy. I told him he didn't have to buy me anything. He was hurt that i would question why he bought a gift. I didn't question him, did I?

Sorry for the rambling, figured if I typed all of this out, TT would remind me when I backslide. And I know I need the reminders when I start to soften. Thank you TT. I may be hard headed, but eventually the 2x4 does do the trick!