I always thought that my right arm was stronger than my left. I am a righty, so that would be natural thinking I guess. Well, it may have been true at one time, but not anymore. Yesterday at PT, I found out that my left arm is stronger. At least it is more accustomed to exercise! First I had my neck stretched. Sounds like torture, but it wasn't. I lay on a examining table with my knees over a bench and my neck in a rest. A heating pad is under my shoulders and a band is around my head. A machine lightly pulls my head while my shoulders are held in place. Then it is relaxed. The room is dark and the whole exercise goes on for about 30 minutes. After awhile it is almost hypnotic and very relaxing. I only felt the stretching the last 3 or 4 times, I guess that is when the neck muscles really started relaxing! After that I start the actual arm and back exercises. The phyiscal therapist, V, actually told me to put 1 weight on the bench press, if I felt that the exercise was to easy, so I did. After 10 reps of 10 on that machine; I went to the universal. He did not increase the weight there. But my arms felt the workout this time-my right arm especially. 10 reps each arm, 10times. This morning I knew I had exercised-but not overly painful. Just a little stiffness, but a good kind. Before I left PT, V told me to exercise every day the same way. So tonight I will go to the workout room after work. I feel great.

B did dishes before I got home, but waited on me to make supper. Uh, he pulled out the steaks, I never said I would do all the cooking. For some reason he thought that I said I would cook whatever he pulled out. It was after 6:30 when I got home, I had texted him letting him know when I got the bus so he could have cooked or at least started it! Chinese food was ordered-he paid for it out of HIS bank or HIS credit card. The PT is being paid for out of my bank account-I will not be able to keep it up for long, but it is something I need now.

TT, you were right about complaints about the sleeping arraingments coming. He is not saying it is my fault, yet. Yesterday we had an "ALL EMPLOYEE MEETING" at work in the auditorium. Now, since B is in a wheel chair, he sits right in front, same as the hearing impaired. He is noticiable by the bigwigs. I sat on the opposite side from him, didn't even look for him, though we did see each other eventually. About halfway through the presentation I noticed him gone from the room. Skits were being done and eye was drawn to that part of stage. Anyway, when he came back, he was acting funny. It was noticiable to others, and several people looked at me, but no one asked me about it. I did NOT go to him. The meeting broke up at lunch time. I went to my desk for lunch. I had told him that I could not eat lunch with him. Then last night he told me he had a seizure at work. His hand had gone into a claw shape, he had left the meeting for 45 minutes. He had had trouble opening and heating his lunch.

When supper was delivered, he got up to get it and wavered. Then the talk was about how he has been losing his balance because his feet haven't been staying up on the ottoman at night. (well, if he hasn't moved it closer to his chair, they won't.) I told him he can sleep on the couch-his responce is that he's too big. I told him if he moves the ottoman over, it would work. Now that I think of it, it probably won't, but NOT MY PROBLEM. He made the choice to move out of the bedroom.

Funny thing,though, today as I was leaving,(he's working from home) he said,"I love you". I just nodded. Didn't say it back. I can't lie and say it. I don't love him.

I am covering for the upstairs secretary today. This should give me time to really work on the budget issues. I want to look at B's income and bills too, at least I will have an idea of what is going on with him so that he can't play matyr with me. (I am not falling for that trick anymore either)