for the first time in 4 weeks I woke up without a headache-Hurrah!!

Today we have our first appointment with the therapist. B shares the bed, but thats about it and he's not a happy camper and has let me know. I do think that part of my migraine problem has been the fact that I have had to keep my boundaries so firmly in place 24/7. For every small step forward he takes, there's a big step back. And he doesn't see it.

The other day DD called us in a panic. Her financial house is in a mess-part of it is because SIL hours at work have been cut, she has to use gas money to do work placing flyers in certain areas and isn't reimbursed 100% for gas, and I don't think that they are spending money wisely-but I don't get into that. Anyway, she has been Robbing Peter to pay Paul for several months. Now all the Apostles want to be paid in full. Yesterday. She calls dad to complain cause she doesn't know how she is getting into this mess. (I have a rough idea-she is hiding her head in the sand and not balancing her budget timely.) Her house and cell phones are due to get disconnected. Lots of stress in her voice. HYPER. B says,Let me talk to mom. "I have $1000 I can send her." My eyes get big. Where did this money come from? As far as I knew we were tight because I have been out of work. He's been putting it aside for my birthday. Ok-its going to her. At least she can catch up on garbage collection, phone and taxes. Ok, I agreed. (mea culpa)-we do have to stop rescuing every 6 months!! History repeating itself with her too, though she says she isn't calling for daddy to help out-she calls his phone!!

After B got off the phone all heck breaks loose. He starts on little things, but then goes off on a tangent that makes no sense. His disappointment about not being able to do a "big deal" for my birthday makes him go off about our marriage. Hey, I just wanted to go out for dinner-no real big deal. I call him on it-point blank. He doesn't get the point that his disappointment is feeding his disregulation. I just start ignoring him. And not responding at all.

DD also had a job interview-she passed the phone interview. She has the in person one next week.(overall should help with pay increases and stability)

One thing I did find out, I can sleep on the couch relatively comfortably, though it is not something my back wants me to do!

I know I am still entangled with B. And being home sick so much with him working from home at the same time hasn't helped. Being in his company continuously is not the best for me.