In no way does Justin deserve my love or me missing him or my tears, or the effort I put into being with him or all the smiles I faked for the sake of being with him. So why do I feel as if I've been smashed into a million pieces again? I feel like a fish that has been flipped out of the tank, the only home I have ever known, and am lying on the floor gasping for breathe and never being able to draw one, all the while I am watched from above with staring eyes of the one who tossed me so carelessly from the safety of my watery home. And all the time I only want his "waves (to) crash down on me and take me away."

"No one will ever feel like this again.
And if I could move,
I'm sure it would only be to crawl back to you.
I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself.
But you know that I could crush you with my voice.
Stood on my roof,
and tried to see you forgetting about me.
Hide the details I don't want to know a thing.
I hate the way you say my name like it's something secret.
My pen is the barrel of the gun,
Remind me which side you should be on.
I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel."
-fall out boy

"If your lucky I will be your last regret."
"I think about you all the time."
"I hold your picture and touch the past with my fingertips, I miss feeling you breathing."

-kln-