ah, i just got home, i need to talk to people, but no one is here to talk to. i am getting over one of the worst allergy attacks ever. i went to allison's house and i was fine for a few hours and then all of a sudden i couldn't breath, and i was wheezing, and my throat was itchy and my eyes were kind of watery and i had to blow my nose every 2 seconds. i must have looked like crap. damn dog. anyway. i am so confused. maybe it's what i wanted, but now that it's here i guess i don't want it anymore.i'm not about using people and saying stuff when i don't mean it, but i feel like such an ass, when i told mike over the summer i was so hurt, i promised i would never do that to anyone. but i think i have to or else i will be constantly fighting with myself. and i realize that this entry makes no sense because i have to hide what it is i'm really talking about, because if certain people readit they might get upset. but i can't do this anymore

sorry....