hello out there, i have not written in here for awhile, primarily because my life has stopped sucking so much and i haven't had much to bitch about.

yes, mr kenduck is still a dickhole, but hey, somethings in life you cannot change.

i went to the shore for prom weekend. that was really fun. i bonded with some people, such as melissa, who i consider my mother...yea. the shore was just so fun, i can't describe it.

school is almost over, we have like two weeks left or something, and after school ends i am going to an incubus concert, and then i am going to nyc for 6 weeks.

and perhaps the best thing about my life right now is ryan. yes kids, it's time for me to get all sappy.

i met him through a girl, and at first i thought, ok this is just another guy that i will talk to for 12 seconds and then never hear from again. we first met via phone conversation, and he was talking, and i was thinking...hm, he likes sports and whatnot, he probably wouldn't like me. but then after that conversation we started talking online, and that first time we talked online we both stayed up till 2 in the morning talking. it was so weird, i had so much to say, and he seemed to know exactly what i was talking about. so that was cool. and then we met in ridgewood, and after we did, i felt kinda crappy, because i thought he thought i was gross and never wanted to talk to me again, but later on he told me he didn't want to seem to clingy the first time we met and that he actually did like me. so that was cool. and then the first time we hooked up, that was at my friend's house, at night on a trampoline, and that was cool. so that night we started dating, and i have to say, ryan is a hot piece of ass. aah. his head is spikey! i love to touch it. and he always has lots of things to talk about, and we agree on so much, and guess what i can read his mind....ahh. he came to my play, and i thought he would dump me after because i looked like such a tool in my costume, but he didn't, he brought me flowers, and it's about damn time, i mean, after being lonely and bitching about it for months, it's about time i find someone who is really worthwhile. i feel like some 11 year old school girl, but oh well, because i have not been this happy is a long time, and i cannot put ryan into a word, he's just too precious. but yea....i'm happy.