it was self defense.

about 6 weeks ago i started taking an antidepressant again. i'd been off of them for about 6 months due to some other meds i was taking. i don't like to take any more than i have to, ya know. anyhoo, i've liked the fact that i've been dreaming again. it's easier to dream when you can actually sleep. and sleep is a by-product of the anti depressant i'm once again taking.

the dreams started to come back to me after a couple weeks. they were nice, many different forms of dreams, fantasy, funny, sexual, and the occasional oddball.

the last two nights have been scary. night before last i dreamed, among other things, that my daughter had been kidnapped by a guy i went to school with. i was friends with his little sister. i woke up while i was on the phone with the police department, unable to utter a word of course.

and then last night there were a few of us in a church. i don't remember why. but johnny was there, playing a character very much like the one he played in the secret window. he started shooting at us. i could see two small caliber bullett holes in my left hand. the girl i was with (i have no clue who she was) and i managed to run out of the church before he reloaded, and miraculously we got our hands on a gun, went back into the church and shot him in the head.

bummer.

i love johnny. i've loved all his roles.

ok, that charlie and the chocolate factory role was kinda freaky, but in a funny sort of way.

maybe it wasn't really self defense. he didn't follow us out of the church, but we weren't taking any chances.

anyone care to analyze???

i'm hoping to get back to the sexual fantasy type dreams real soon.

maybe i'll bring johnny back for a different kind of performance.

heh.