the methods and means of procrastination

Crack the door
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Dimpled Chad
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Oh yeah, time change. Day Light Savings took us by surprise, thankfully in the right direction, we are now super early instead of late. We are "4 year old" sitting later today and I didn't want to screw up the schedule.

We actually just found out that our friends are expecting their 2nd child; really good news since they weren't sure if they were going to have more than one kid. [ my reasoning here is they are such cool people, we need more of them on the planet. ]

Here is probably a good segue into motherhood and babies, but I'm not sure yet if I want to talk about these issues here. Suffice to say, I'm wrestling more these days with the practical side of starting a family vs. the irrational fear of starting a family. I told guru, I'm apparently okay with pregnancy, babies and 2 year old. Now it's the 3 - life portion [of the project] that I'm not sure I'm ready for. (Read: terror of uncertainty mixed with joy) Apparently I'm thinking about in terms of "quarters", and how it will fit into my "K" plan. ;) Hats off to my friends, anyway.

In other news, I've started painting sigourney. It's going...okay? I've got the first layer of base colors down and I started going back in and doing details last night. It's completely changed character from what I was thinking in my head, which is the biggest probably I have with painting. It's like translating into a 3rd language from a 2nd language. It's a very indirect way to communicate. I haven't given up hope yet, but today will be more crucial. This is usually when I over do it and it becomes muddy. Oh, and the cheerful sigourney does not look like sigourney. I have to get that fixed before I go any further. I was just tired of not doing anything, so I started cranking it out last night. Damned are they that storm ahead.

[Added later: I think I understand why this is so hard: I'm use to "intuiting" when I'm drawing because I've done it so long that I can shut off my left side and let my right drive. Painting is still in the analyitical "grammatic" stage of learning. In other words, I am not yet "fluent" in painting. Ah Hah!]

A few other notes: Got a chance to talk with Guru last night about schools and "The Plan." I think it went really well and we were able to come to a decision about what we are going to try to do next. It does still involve school for Guru, though more generalized than what he was thinking, hopefully with the possibility of a TA job. It also means I go cold turkey and try to get into a design firm/agency. We hope to stay where we are, but if you saw my earlier post, there is very little chance I can find anything worthwhile in Pgh. Over all, I feel better, because now I have something to do while I'm spinning my wheels.

Just crack the door and the INFJ will be happy.

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